Rats: Part XXXI

< Part XXX

The desert was cold. The night had sliced through the heat with metal claws attached to robotic fingers, tearing away the hot and unpleasant blanket of protection for a chill and vulnerability of night. Medees could see across the darkness, the lights in the distance like the eyes of some powerful monster that was slowly crawling across the desert toward them. Her feet burned against the sand, cold as if the sand had turned to glass and ice and was melting slower and slower against her skin as the chill set in deeper to her flesh. The robotification hadn’t numbed her yet. She was still feeling everything, everything even more. Every nerve was on fire. Every cell and every follicle. She could feel them growing, her skin shedding. Each breath and each shift brushed away a few flakes of skin and they fell away without pain but not without notice.
Medees felt sick.
There was a thump behind her, but she could feel it through the air before the sound reached her ears. Her senses weren’t so much heightened as they were keened, peaked, painfully hyperalert like she waited in a trench.
“Would’ve been a better name for this place,” she said aloud to Granger, as the redhead came around the car to stand beside Medees. Granger’s eyes flickered over the dark, shaking skin of Medees, each little scar like a network of veins on her skin, each scar from implants unnumbered and unregulated. Her beautiful, natural curls bounced against the wind and her voice still lingered in the air, such a rare solid sound leaving the fiery Murid.
“What would’ve been?”
“The Trenches,” said Medees. “Fits the theme better.”
“The Bunker and the Trenches.”
“And No Man’s Land,” said Medees with a nod out toward the desert. Granger looked out at it, out at the empty darkness and the breaks of sharp light, eyes as numerous as some abomination through the air. Granger could feel echoes, or perhaps it was just the years old beer and desert peyote that Murdoc guy had given them, but echos that made sense to her. She felt the world as if time and space were momentary, as if every battle and war had been waged in the same moment, in the same place. Here and now, they stood as soldiers on every front, as rebels on every step, as guerillas in every hiding place. They were insurgents and officers, spies and revolutionaries. Dying ahead of time or near the end of it.
“Destroya’s land,” Granger said. Medees made only a sour exhale in response.

Part XXXII >

Rats: Part XXX

< Part XXIX

The Dugout was quiet. Medees stood with her aching body wrapped in her clothes. Somehow, all the pain felt far away. She didn’t know if that meant her nerves were scorched or that her body was growing numb. Maybe it was a normal process of robotification.
Soon, she wouldn’t feel anything.
She stared out of the garage door at the glint on the horizon, the City. There were old Murids in there or maybe there weren’t anymore. Was this what made “K” start cleaning house? Start coming after them out here again? Or maybe figuring out they were out here made him come down on the Murids in the  City? Her head was throbbing.
She turned her head, seeing the outline of Granger on the stairs. Medees’ throat suddenly swelled up. She didn’t know if she wanted to thank Granger for saving her life or attack her again for losing the little girl. She was a child.
True child of the desert…
Medees shook her head, looking ahead once more. Doc was supposed to be back from the Bunker any minute now. Him and Justice and the rest of them. Medees saw where they’d buried Crash while she was out. She moved him; Doc couldn’t remember where they’d buried everyone else before. The anger rippled up her back like a splash of scalding water, but even that felt far away.
“You didn’t mean to,” Medees said, her voice a rough sound. Granger didn’t move from her place on the ramp. “”K” meant to.”
Granger’s black eye throbbed and she considered coming down the ramp.
Medees didn’t move from that spot until the cars from the Bunker showed up. The woman from the City looked neon amongst the dirt-stained vehicles and people around her. Murdoc stayed right by her side. It was the most Medees had seen him before. Justice’s face had been stripped of its self-righteousness. She’d boasted for so long about saving the last of the Murids and the City spit out more. It was hard for her not to take it personally. Like they survived in the City just to shame her.
The talking was, at first, just an attempt to calm people down. Medees instantly went off on Doc, attemtping to get him to answer why they’d even brought her car in the first place, why the little girl had the opportunity to stow away. The Murid from the City, through rough barks introduced as Eli, had roaring questions of her own, but her questions were all met with the same level of harshness. She was demanding that someone had to have known. It all came back to Isabela. The arguments slowly wound down and Eli stormed, panting, through the open garage door. She threw out her hands.
“There is no way we’re getting back into New Mercy. The rest of the Plague’s dead or scattered. I know the Solari’s wiped out. Isabela…she knew and she said nothing. Why the fuck would she do that?” Eli rounded on the familiar and unfamiliar faces staring at her.
“Survival isn’t just about getting back up,” Granger said. Eli took a step forward and Murdoc stood quickly, facing a hand to Eli and then one at the group.
“We’re taking a walk.”
Eli didn’t have much choice as Murdoc steered her away.
The garage, although filled with people, was quiet suddenly. Malakai and Aris sat together, nursing his bleeding nose. It hadn’t stopped since the fight. Ray sat with Farley pacing in front of him. Medees, strangely enough, stood stiller than the rest of them. They fidgeted and adjusted their weight and cleared their throats. Medees didn’t move, barely breathed.
“You think “K” knows about the prophecy?” came a soft question, one of the Bunker Murid’s voices barely breaking the silence. Justice nearly snapped her neck looking toward them with a frown.
“If he does,” Doc responded, “he’ll think twice about killing that little girl.”
“You fucking believers,” Medees growled, pushing herself up and looking at all of them. She knew they all believed in some way, all had their little totems and charms and prayers to Destroya to come and set them free. She wiped her mouth. “If he wants to kill her, nothing’s going to stop him. He burned some of us alive on a pedestal for the whole City to watch and that’s after fifty years of slaughter. He doesn’t give a shit about that little girl. Make some fucking battle plans already.”
Medees’ eyes lingered on Justice’s, an unspoken promise between them. Justice inhaled and watched Medees disappear back into the Dugout. Justice looked at Doc. The pair of them had a lot to discuss.

Part XXXI>

Holiday week break

Due to the weather outside being frightful, but the fire’s pretty damn delightful, there will be no update this week. Come back next year–or in two weeks–for an update.

Happy holidays and may the world become better for it.

~Mads

Rats: Part XXIX

< Part XXVIII

The desert was hotter than Eli remembered, but not even another rain of fire could have stopped her. She now sat beside Aris, the wounded van wobbling through the sand toward what those around her kept referencing as the Dugout. Eli gripped her gun in her hand, swallowing slowly. The Murids around her seemed to have pistols, but they were simple things. Her own gun looked much different than theirs, much different than it did fifty years ago. Eli’s chest hurt and she wanted to be the one driving; out in the desert, what could she hit? Another missile? Probably not. Doc gripped tightly the radio, waiting for news about his neice. That girl wasn’t fire. Fire can be put out. That girl was the desert.
Then again, maybe he was waiting for news about the little girl, the one the red car had been carrying. Eli swallowed hard. This felt like a nightmare and a dream all rolled into one. The Murids were alive, but for how much longer? Eli could smell sweat everywhere.
The gangs and the Murids both thought they were the last of their kind and now it turned out they weren’t alone. And they were being hunted again.
“How many are there out here?” Eli’s voice was hoarse and she swallowed hard after asking her question. Aris looked at her from the driver’s seat, her arms and hands shaking. She sniffed, wiping at the wet trails through the dust on her face.
“Half-dozen here,” came her soft voice, “fifteen, twenty at the bunker.”
Eli’s heart leapt into her throat as she tried to keep from feeling sick. There were so many out here. She had what? A half-dozen at most? Her stomach was twisted and turning. They hadn’t been any the wiser. No one in New Mercy knew anything. It decimated the lies TRaPS told them. Eli wanted to kill Isabela for keeping this to herself.
A crackling message came over the radio. Medees was alive and safe. They were bringing her back to the Dugout. Doc, seeming satisfied, turned to Aris.
“Go to the Bunker. They can take care of Medees here.” He spoke so seriously and gravely that Eli could feel it. She looked at him, a frown coming on to her mouth.
“This about the little girl?”
Doc sunk back against his wheelchair, breathing out slowly. “It’s about everything, Eli.”
“You’re still preaching, ain’t you, Jordan?”
“Save it for Justice, Eli.”
Her eyes widened and she felt a wave of relief that at least someone she knew back in the day was still kicking, but something in Doc’s tone made her lips seal shut. When he didn’t want to talk, he wouldn’t. He was the stone that had been grated into sand.
It was a few hours before they reached the Bunker and Aris barely had time to put it in park before the New Mercy resident was yanking open the side door and swearing. Her eyes were on the dozen Murids gathered out front of the Bunker, some bruised and sweaty, part of the crew that had driven with them. It seemed Eli’s surprise was at the sight of them, but Eli’s eyes were fixed on one as she came forward, her chest rising and falling. Justice, standing at the head of the group, followed her old friend’s eyes over her shoulder.
“Fuck,” Eli barked, her voice deep and cursed with chronic sarcasm suddenly breaking, “sweet fucking Destroya… Murdoc.”
The man she adressed turned from his conversation with Raptor and his face fell, but only for a moment. Eli suddenly hesitated, her feet stopping her. If anyone else spoke at this moment, there was no way she could hear them. Her eyes stared at her best friend, a man she’d thought dead for so long. She swallowed as a smirk spread on his lips.
“Ellie,” he said, forcing a casual grin as she took another step forward, then another as she threw a punch at his arm.
“Eli, you piece of shit,” she choked out, throwing her arms around his shoulders and only he could feel her voice shaking as she embraced him. “Fuck…”
“It’s okay,” Murdoc said, a chuckle in his voice, but his knuckles were white and he buried his face against her neck. Only she could feel his hands shaking against her back. There was silence as they embraced. Justice looked at Doc. There was no time for questions right now. Everyone needed at least this night’s rest. Doc left Eli at the Bunker for the night.
When they returned the next day with Medees still roaring, the time for questions came.

Part XXX >

Rats: Part XXVIII

< Part XXVII

There was a hissing sound over her head, wavering in and out of her poor ringing ears. Medees could feel her head throbbing, smell blood, ink, metal. Her mouth ached and she tongued a few holes where teeth should’ve been. A scream of pain. She could see movement around her. There was a roar, like a monster or a bonfire. “K” appeared, wrapping himself around her like a snake. Medees opened her mouth, but he put hist hand over it and he turned into sand on her tongue, in her throat…
Medees’ eyes opened slowly and she cringed, closing them again. Dust in her eyes. Sand. Dirt. Her hands twitched and she pushed herself up on shaking, trembling arms. Her head was ringing, She gasped in a breath, trying to remember what happened. She heard the sound of the van driving away, that was the last thing she remembered. Her eyes were dry and her body ached. She was covered in sand. Even standing up, there was so much sand she felt caked in it. It was cold and painful, the night having fallen and her body shivered and quaked as she stood. Her dark eyes searched for the moon, anything to tell her which way to face to make it to the Bunker.
When she turned around, she saw the City. It was closer than she wanted to admit. She could hear sirens in one of the neighborhoods. She oriented herself off of that and started her stiff, aching legs walking. They thought she was gone? She kept walking, slowly, painfully. It was twenty whole minutes before she saw the movement ahead. A car approached to get her. It was red. They had waited for her.
“That fucking robot has her!”
Granger leapt out of the car as it closed in, yanking off her large jacket and wrapping it around Medees’ shoulders as the woman half-collapsed on to her. Granger was strong enough to keep her up, but not to move the larger woman. Ray helped her get Medees into the car. Farley was there, in the driver’s seat. Where was Mordecai? Had he been injured? Had they gotten Crash’s body? Her mouth and throat were too dry to speak any words and she coughed weakly as Granger held her. The back seat smelled like leather and paint and blood, blood again.
She woke up four hours later, sore and dry-throated, but otherwise fine. She tried to roar out for Doc, or maybe Granger, but all that was released was a gutteral yowl. She curled on to her side, pushing her feet off the side of the bed and kicking records to the floor. She was at home, in her own bed. Something warm lay over her hip.
Medees yelled out again as she pushed herself to sit up and looked over at Granger rousing slowly beside her. The jacket sat in Medees’ lap now. There was a dirt imprint where her body had been.
“That fucking robot has her!”
Medees threw out a hand and shoved Granger into the wall. They had to pull Medees off of Granger. She was screaming, “How the fuck could you let him take her!?”

Part XXIX >

Rats: Part XXVII

< Part XXVI

The van raced away from the City. Medees’ eyes were glued to the rearview mirror, knowing there was next to nothing to hit out in the desert. Not for a hundred miles. She could see laser fire, but the red car was making it’s way out. Granger’s voice was staticy and broken. Were they okay? Had Granger gotten hurt? What about the little girl? Medees forced herself to look at Aris to feel some modicum of success over what they’d just done. Aris was sobbing quietly, cradling Crash’s head in her lap. Medees’ eyes moved ahead again. That wasn’t success, was it? Behind her, she could hear panting finally die down.
The woman that had come from the City finally pulled her face away from the window and turned, her shoulders still rising and falling, to look at the other people in the van. Her eyes, as lavender as her hair, went to Doc. She took in a shaky breath, squinting. Her panting started up again.
“Jordan?”
“You look awfully slick, Saint Eli.”
“And you look as scruffy as I do… Fuck,” the woman dropped her chin to her chest, not sure if she should smile or cry, but tears were in her eyes. Doc’s own had turned glossy. “I can’t fucking believe this. It’s fucking true…fuck, fuck…fuck…”
“You been in the City the whole time?” Doc asked and Eli’s eyes lifted up to his. She was red in the face, her dark skin turned flush with crimson as she stared.
“Are you fucking kidding me?” She came forward, her hand going from the ceiling to the side of the van for support as she glared. “You’ve been sending that Murid into New Mercy for how fucking long? You can’t pretend you didn’t know about us!”
“You think we knew?”
“You expect me to believe you didn’t know some of us were still kicking?” Eli snarled through her teeth, but she lowered her voice as she glanced over to Aris and Crash. She looked at Doc, her brows narrowing. “How could we have just fucking missed each other for 25 years?”
“No one told me there were Murids in the City,” Doc said slowly, “because the last thing we were told was that you were all dead. Isabela named names, Saint, and it was every body we were missing.”
“Except hers, right?” Eli muttered, shifting to slide down the side of the van and sit against the right wheel of Doc’s chair. Doc lowered his eyes and went quiet. Eli stared at Aris and Crash, pain stirring up in her belly. She lowered her voice, so that only Doc could hear her. “Me ‘n the rest of the Murids that lived started up a gang. We always protected Isabela and she never said a fucking word.” She hesitated, chewed on her words, then added in a voice that Aris couldn’t hear. “Saw her get taken or killed by the TRaPS.”
“Isabela ever say anything to you, Throttle?”
Aris looked up, her eyes wet and her lips quivery. She glared at Eli, but then shook her head, closing her eyes.
“About what?”
“About Murids in the City?”
“That they were dead,” Aris’ voice shook and she squeezed Crash’s hand. “Told me to stay away from the gangs. ‘As dangerous as “K” but not as smart,’ she said.”
“Asshole,” Eli muttered, but nodded. “Sounds like Isabela.”
“This is a fucking mess.”
Medees slammed her fist down against the hood of the car, barking out, “Is there anything coming through on the goddamn radio?”
Doc snatched up the radio and threw it forward at Medees, who had to hit the breaks to try and catch it. She pressed hard on the button. She could see out one side window that one of the vehicles from the Bunker was speeding away from the City as well, not pursued by any motorcycles or white cars. Medees suddenly realized that there was no longer anyone on the can’s tail either. A crackling voice came through the static, through the crackling on the radio. The broken tones of Granger’s voice made no sense.
“Fuck,” she snarled, not wanting to try and respond in case they could get through. Medees turned the van around hard, nearly tipping it, and could seee the glint of a red shape moving out of the dust. It was darting to the east, out of the fight zone, but Granger’s screaming voice came over the radio.
“…oooook the little girl! That fucking robot has her! He’s calling innnnnnn…….” Kzzzzch. Medees’ head seemed to catch fire, the anger and pain filling her face with blood and making her ears pop. She tried to turn the van toward the red car, but there was a high-pitched whistling sound and the van was thrown into the air with an explosion. It landed hard on it’s side and skidded across the dirt. Medees’ body, covered in glass and deep wounds, had been thrown through the driver’s side window. Crash’s corpse disappeared out the back when it popped open. Everything turned into a sharp ringing sound and plumes of dust.

Part XXVIII >

Rats: Part XXVI

< Part XXV

The air is quiet, but the dark of the hour makes Eli’s hair stand up as if a chill was in the air. Her scruffy face is tired, in need of upkeep, but she hasn’t thought about appearances for weeks now. The only thing that matters is watching that horizon. A few shapes far out seem to move, but with nothing but sand and dirt and dry grass out there, it might be the heat. Eli’s chest aches. She wants answers.
“Boss,” whispers a voice, someone far off that had gotten on Eli’s nerves too many times, “I see movement coming this way. Looks like one person.”
Eli scrambles to her feet, demanding more details. What do they look like? Any other shapes further out? Maybe there’s more spaced out around them? At the same time, she rushes for the stairs and nearly falls as she jumps down flight after flight. It’s at least five minutes before they get to the speaker’s position. Eli meets them on the corner of the desert and New Mercy between an old liquor store and something that has a boarded up window on one side. Eli’s shoulders rise and fall as she looks out with her own binoculars to see a single shape coming in. It’s figure is familiar, reminding her of the woman she’d seen with Isabela. Eli looks at her crew, a hard look on her face. Her adrenaline is pumping and she barks out orders.
As people at the edge of New Mercy scatter, the figure comes closer in the distance.
Medees’ fingernail had been much longer twenty minutes ago when Aris had first started her ingress. She was going to give her another five minutes, then bolt after her. It would be too close to the City for them to try and stop her. She’d get Aris in and out. There was a some fuss on the radio, but she didn’t listen.
“What? How the hell didn’t you notice her?”
A staticy reply from Granger, who seemed to have found a stowaway in the car. Some banging in the trunk had alerted them a while back, so they were now racing to catch up with the others. They were only ten minutes behind. Aris had still a few miles to go.
“Keep that little girl out of the way. We don’t want her getting hurt.”
The radio went quiet and Medees began counting the seconds. It was only a few minutes before the was too close to the City for them to follow. Another 2 minutes. 1 minute. 30 seconds.
“Fuck! We’ve got sight of something moving out of the City.”
Medees jerked up, looking over her shoulder. Doc’s eyes met hers for a single moment and Medees turned ahead. The engine roared to life and they sped towards Aris, headlights off. If they were already caught, it didn’t matter, but if they weren’t, there was still a chance they might go unnoticed. However, the conversation that continued behind her made it clear the former was the case.
“They’re in a single car and a big group behind it. We need to get out of here,” Justice’s voice said.
Doc responded, “We need your help to get Aris. Granger Danger, you turn and high-tail it out of here with that little girl.”
“No,” Granger’s voice came through, “we can keep her out of the way.”
“We don’t have time to argue, we need a second car,” Medees barked as her mind tried to focus on the best way to come up around Aris without being too far away to make a good escape. The other car was at least smart enough to keep it’s lights off too, but it had a loud motor, a loud growl that made Medees nervous. She panted, wishing she could hear Aris’ voice come over the radio. She was too far away for it to work. Her body was burning, each of her bones scorched from the robotification, but if she couldn’t die now, then there was no stopping her.
The car reached Aris first, sweeping around and someone leapt out of the back seat. The van skidded around to come at them from behind, Medees slowing down almost completely to knock into the stopped car just hard enough to knock it out of the way, make the person trying to grab Aris jump out of the way. They were dark with vibrant purple hair and ink buried into their skin. Medees listened to the side and back doors of the van being thrown open, but the smell of laser fire didn’t suddenly heat up the air.
“Don’t shoot!” roared the woman who jumped to her feet, one hand still reaching for Aris and the other in the air. However, before she could finish, a orange blast skimmed across her cheek and made her jump back. Medees snarled.
“Get the fuck away from her!”
The City-dweller opened her mouth, but the sudden flush of bright lights startled them all. Coming around from the other side of the City, three sets of headlights grew closer by the second.
“Fuck! TRaPS!” The woman barked, turning to her car. “Get your fucking guns out and go back into Mercy!”
“Bo-”
“Go!” She whirled around to Aris and Crash leapt out of the van to reach her first. He pulled Aris toward the van, his gun trained on the other woman.
“Fuck off!” he barked, but the woman came closer, both hands in the air. She began to say she wasn’t here to fight them, but a hail of laser fire came out of the blinding lights that sped toward them and Crash yelled out. Aris bolted toward the car, her hand still clamped around his, but his body fell limp and out of Aris’ grip as she took her first steps.
“Crash!”
Medees roared the van to life, putting it between Aris and the on coming white-masks. The roar of their own other cars approaching filled the air as Justice’s cars responded. Granger’s voice barked over the radio.
“One of them is breaking off to come around to our asses,” static took her voice for a moment before it returned, “-ight have “K” holed up inside it!”
Medees leapt out of the car along with the pair of Murids from the Bunker that were in the back. The other two picked up Crash and Medees took hold of Aris, coming around to her side to put her body between Aris’ and the lasers. Medees couldn’t feel anything more than the same burning in her very marrow.
A screeching sound of metal on metal rang out as one of the Bunker vans was hit head on from the side by a motorcycle that was driving without its lights on. They had more than just the three cars, but the bikers were hidden behind the blinding lights.
“Fuck!” The radio exploded with static before the feed cut out for a moment. The van swerved hard into a ridge and was tempted to tip over. There wasn’t time to keep watching. Medees turned and slammed the side door behind her. Laser fire filled the air as the red car slid into sight, Granger’s head out of the window as her brother steered and she fired on the TRaPS cars. The pursuit began to slow and the driving turned to blocking, sharp turns to surround and swerve Granger’s driving. Medees jumped into the van’s driver’s seat, shutting the door hard and roaring the van to life. She wheeled it around, snarling over her shoulder as the woman from the City caught hold of the back door and pulled herself into the van too. Her car had returned into the City’s shadow, but some of the crowd were still in pursuit. The woman held hard to the door, looking out of it as she helped pull it shut.
“I said get back into the city!” Her figners were to some piece of tech in her ear. Even the gun tucked into the back of her pants was nicer than the hand-painted ones around her. Doc frowned, but they didn’t have time to try and kick her out.
Medees pressed her foot into the gas pedal, dust roaring up behind them, but she snarled over her shoulder. “The other car is over here and I can’t see a fucking thing. They’re gonna ram us.”
Her hard turn protected the windshield from a barrage of laser fire from the flanking car. They opened up the windows and fired on them in return as Medees tried to out run the car to get around them. The old, rickety van couldn’t outrun the City car and it whipped around, kept pursuit, drove them back toward the City.
They could see Granger’s car finally dart from between the other two, one of the doors wrenched open and unable to be closed. Laser fire came out of the broken back window from three guns, including the little girl. Her face was alight in the pursuing car’s headlights. It was a more sleek, beautiful car than the large, well-maintained sedans. As they drove to the side, Medees and the rest of the van could make out more of the motorcycles hidden amongst the sand and cars.
“Take out the bikers!” Medees barked. Granger’s car jerked to the side and Medees turned her car toward theirs, nearly hitting their pursuer and making them swerve. In the red car, Granger ground her teeth together, hitting the gas hard. She looked at the little girl in the back seat, her knees up in the middle as Farley put his arm around her and covered her as another barrage of lasers came out of the two vehicles on their tail. Some of the bikers that had come up to their left side had disappeared, hit by the Murids in the van no doubt. Granger ducked as one came up on the right and fired on the passenger side door.
Granger fired out the window back at them, making them fall back slightly. The lights from behind were getting too harsh and Granger squinted as she tried not to look in the rearview, but there was a sudden hard sound and a jerk sent them swerving forward. The TRaPS car rear-ended them again, knocking them to one side and, as the red car fishtailed for traction in the sandy dirt, the other car pulled up to one side of it.
Granger yelled out as she had to hit the brakes to keep them from spinning further. Sand enveloped them, filling up the air as they came to a harsh halt and everyone coughed and gasped. Granger looked over her shoulder with watering eyes, reaching back to feel for arms or hands.
“Fuck! Is everyone okay?” There were groans and affirmations of answers, but the sound of a door outside of their car slamming shut made Granger look up. The car that pulled up beside them had stopped and “K” now approached the car.

Part XXVII >

Rats: Part XXV

< Part XXIV

When the sun came down against the horizon and sent darkness across the desert, Medees was already sitting in the driver’s seat of the van. She had stared for a long while at Granger in the seat of the red car, the way she looked there with her violent red hair and her hard face. Medees looked ahead now, at the desert and the glint that begged for their souls in the distance. She looked at Aris as she climbed into the passenger seat. It felt like they’d done this a hundred times. Except with a thousand more questions about Medees’ legs and if she wanted to sit down. Her legs burned like the rest of her.
They had, but not with three extra cars. Go in at night, get her in, get her out? Medees knew that Justice hadn’t thought about the extraction. Medees had. It was all she’d focused her mind on to avoid the burning in her bones. They liked to think she was invincible now, but she couldn’t feel that way. It hurt too much, too deeply. Did “K” burn like this or was it just the Murids’ robotification methods? Did the City make perfect robots that felt nothing but how strong they were now or did they each silently live this way? Medees didn’t know, but she knew she burned. She had already accepted that it might burn forever. Did Doc know? Could he even understand? Medees leaned over and put her hand on top of Aris’ on the arm rest.
“When we hit the City, I’m going in with you.”
“What? Did they change it while I-”
“Aris, listen to me. I’m going to go in with you. Until you’re where you need to be, I’m going in.”
Aris frowned deeply, tilting her head. Then her frown lessened. Medees squeezed her hand and lowered her voice.
“You’re making it back out.”
Aris didn’t argue further, nodding once and relieving her hand to hold on to the bag in her lap. It was empty, like always, but no one much expected her to fill it before she returned. This was a last-dash operation. It was a bad idea and Medees didn’t like driving at the head of it. She turned the van carefully around, looking out the window to catch Granger’s eye. Granger smiled at Medees, a wide and sincere thing, and Medees nearly missed the fear, but they were all afraid so what difference would that make? She parked the van for a few minutes, letting Doc come up the back ramp and get situated before Crash slammed the van doors shut behind him. Medees looked over the back of her seat, frowning, but then faced forward again.
At least he wasn’t just stowing away.
Medees let out a slow breath, then reached down to the radio. She had the walkie in her lap. Her fingers curled, recoiled for a moment, then she put her fingers on the buttons. Instantly, the car came to life with the sound of Justice’s voice giving the last minute speech about staying on the white van’s flanks, on Granger hanging back in the red car to keep from being seen, about the plan that they’d gone over and over and over until they were blue in the face and Medees was so tempted to press the button and turn it right back off, but she could feel Doc’s eyes on her and she reluctantly picked up the walkie. However, she reached back and tossed it at him.
“That’s your problem,” she said flatly, “I’m driving.”
He’d had a hard time saying no since she’d gotten out, a hard time aruging with her. Justice didn’t, seeing her rather as some creation of her own, but even though Medees didn’t appear any different on the outside, her eyes were calmer. Doc could see how the pain broke her. He nodded, but added a chuckle.
“‘Cuz no one ever sees you drive one-handed while you’re shooting, eh?”
“Pretty sure they’re asking for you,” Medees said, ignoring him. She wished the old speakers in the back still worked and she could put all that noise back with him instead. She unlatched the brake and started driving.
Granger watched out the front window of the red car, watching the van move slowly forward. She swallowed, her heart thumping. She felt something was going to happen and she was afraid. Where had they even been the last time this had happened? Way too small to remember, right? Granger swallowed, jumping as the trunk shut. He looked up.
“Did you hear that?”
“Yeah,” Farley said impatiently, “it was me slamming my hands on the back of your fuckin’ seat. Let’s get a fucking move on!”
“We have to stay back,” Granger said, but Granger was already rolling the car forward, keeping closer to the trio of vans leading the way.

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